vergangenheitsbewaltigung

i

They say you know you have forgiven a person
when you stop telling your side of the story
and start telling the truth.


ii

At first, I thought: 'it can't be normal
to hate a person so much you hope they die
in Afghanistan.'  But then I realised that when they say
hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
they aren't saying it for shits and giggles.

So now I'll say it:
I hope you get shot in Afghanistan.  


iii

No.  I cannot forgive you.
Not while I still want
your hands in my hair and
on my breasts and hips and
back and undoing my dress
and your lips kissing every
inch of my skin.
I simply cannot forgive you.  


iv

I keep buying new things,
as if Kleide Machen Leute and now I'll have
the perfect man and I won't even think about you
anymore.
But it doesn't happen,
and I just have to find ways of paying.


v

They say you know you have forgiven a person
when you stop telling your side of the story
and start telling the truth

but the truth is this;
I loved you, you broke me,
and never said sorry.




only the margins to write on now.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.